If I Had Never
© 2013, Stephen K. Roberts
Why do they say it is better to have loved and lost,
Than never to have loved before?
I’m the one filing these letters and photographs,
Away in this empty drawer.
If I had never felt your touch,
If I had never felt your kiss,
If I had never known such bliss,
How would I know,
What I’m feeling now,
Isn’t solitude, but loneliness?
Finding my way through the fog of this pain is a climb,
So insurmountable,
Living a lie, telling everyone everything’s fine,
And not held accountable.
If I had never felt your touch,
If I had never felt your kiss,
If I had never known such bliss,
Screaming your name,
Streaming tears, shouting blame,
Wouldn’t so betray your tenderness.
BRIDGE:
You broke a promise,
Said you’d always stay,
I can’t forgive you,
Leastways not today,
Not yet anyway.
Shadows slip by as the sun scrapes the sky, etching fire,
And piercing the perfect blue.
Peeling away all the hurt and the grief ‘til I find,
That part of me’s made of you.
If I had never felt your touch,
If I had never felt your kiss,
If I had never known such bliss,
I’d still be here and you’d still be gone,
Nothing good could come of such a wish.